I'm alive :) and pregnant!!!!

So it's been more than forever since I've posted on my blog. Life has been so crazy and wonderful.. The twins are now 9 months old and are growing like weeds. The last 9months have been so amazing words cant' describe. I know I still haven't posted anything about them besides let you all know that they are here. I will try and post on that later this week. I really want to start getting on here more often. I need to sit down and commit to it. First off the twins are doing amazing, talking up a storm and becoming more independent every day. So my hubby and I found out about a month ago that I'm pregnant.... Yes pregnant and with no fertility stuff at all.. On a Sunday at the end of January I started to think about when AF was going to come. I don't keep track of my cycles at all. I mean really why?? It took us forever and a half to get the twins and at my 6 weeks postpartum appointment when my OB asked if I wanted any birth control I had to laugh at her and say.... No I'm not spending $50 a month on it when it took us $60,000 to get the twins. Well much to my surprise I POAS on a Monday and the BFP came up before the control line.. To say that I was in shock is a HUGE understatement.. So I am now a little over 8 weeks pregnant and my due date is October 19. I've been feeling awful, but can say I'm having a few good days out of the week. I will try my best to get on her once a week to update my blog.. At least thats my hopes ;)

The twins have arrived

The twins were born on Friday June 10th. We've been in the NICU for the last 2.5 weeks. He's already home and she's suppose to come home today or tomorrow. I know I've sucked at updating my blog but I promise to update as soon as we get her home..

Drumroll please... We are having...

Our sweet baby girl


Our little man

We found out on Wednesday that we are having a boy and a girl. At 14 weeks our U/S tech said she thought it was a boy/girl and then at 16 weeks she guessed the same thing. And was she right or what. Jake and I are so in love and on cloud 9. Everyone is doing great and growing like weeks. She weighs in at 7oz and he is weighing 9oz. He was flexing most of the time. She looked mad during the u/s, she didn't want to get her picture taken. It was so amazing. My heart melted as soon as I saw them.


18 weeks


I've been feeling great. Life can't get mych better than this. No more all day sickness either. Thank God. That first trimester was awful. I've had no cravings yet, which I'm sure Jak eis happy about. I went to the OB almost 3 weeks ago and I've only gained a whole 2lbs. Finally have a baby bump which is amazing. I felt the babies about a week ago, I was at work talking to a co-worker when all of a sudden a felt a little pop on her side, about 2 seconds later a felt the same pop on his side. It was the craziest feeling. Although I've only felt them here and there I'm glad they aren't boxing in ther yet. It's gettin pretty hard to sleep and I'm sure if they were moving around a bunch it would be even worse. I'm only able to eat a little at a time, I get so full so fast and then I feel like I need to vomit. So I try to eat lots of smaller meals throughout the day.Other than that we are moving right along. Crazy to think that tomorrow I'm half way through with this pregnancy.....

15 week belly

First I would like to apologize for being away from my blog for almost 2 months. The last few months have been crazy. We are all healthy and the babies are growing like weeds. The first trimester really kicked my butt. I have been so sick and tired lol but really if I'm not working I'm in bed relaxing or sleeping, trying to eat has been a journey in itself. As of last Monday which was my 14 week appointment I still hadn't gained any weight.My Ob isnt' concerned about it, she says I will more than likely gain most of my weight during the second half of my pregnancy. I'm ok with that. I'm not the girl who uses pregnancy as an excuse to eat. I eat when I'm hungry and if someone is eating something that looks good I wil steal whatever they are willing to give the babies. I can't stand the sight of chicken and lunch meat is at the top of the list as far as food I would dnever eat. I usually love meat but not so much these days. I've only cooked dinner twice since getting pregnant, my poor hubby ;( I love cooking but just not these days. I crave apples, and they have to be super cold :) and I'm also a candy junkie.. Nerds are my favorite lol I hate talkign on the phone now, takes up way to much energy If I could be a hermit crab during the next few months I would be so happy. Around my 7th week I started spotting so my RE made me cut back on work so I can only work about 30 hours a week now, 6 hours a day. I spotted until I was almost 10 weeks. The scariest thing I have every been throuhg, I was a major stress case. At 14 weeks I was told I have placenta previa so now exercise, excessive walking and no sex... BOOOOOOO!!!!! I haven't been spotting at all but they just want to be cautious. My OB has also been having me come in every 2 weeks for and u/s they want to keep an eye on my cervis to make sure I don't need a cerclage.

I think that about covers the last 8 weeks. I'm going to try my hardest to get on here once a week to update my blog. These little twinkies take every out of me. Oh and I have bronchitis right now too. :(

XOXo

Saw heartbeats..

So I stopped spotting on Sunday. What a relief that was only for it to start back up on Monday night. We went to see the RE on Monday morning to see the twinkies heartbeats. That was probably the most amazing thing I have ever seen. The flickered so fast. We definetly have heartbeats. We didn't get to hear them yet, but I can't wait for that ultrasound. I'm still super nauseuos, been on the edge of throwing up for the last few days but I've been able to keep my food down.. Thank God. I wish my RE would put me on something. It's so hard to figure out what I want to eat and then when I do get around to eating it I've lost my appetite. UGh! lol Now I need to figure out what to eat tonight. Love my little twinkies though!!

Just call me spot

Because that's all I seem to be doing these days. I went to the bathroom on Sunday and freaked out when I saw dark brown on the TP. Called my donor who has had babies lol and she works for our RE and she said to just put my feet up for the rest of the night. She said to call if it turns red. Thank God we had an appointment in the morning so I could see my babies. I told the RE I was spotting and he said that everything looked ok, there was no blood around the babies and he told me to call if it got worse or it turned red. Well stupid me I went to work on Tuesday and worked 13 hours.. I know REALLY stupid. Got home on Tuesday night and was spotting even more, Called the RE late night and he suggested that I not go to work the next day and cut back on my hours. So I called all of my clients for the day and told them that they had to wait to get their hair done. I then started the grueling task of cutting back my hours. I'm a complete workaholic so it was hard for me to do it. Although I will do whatever it takes to keep my babies I did it without any hesitation. I'm now only working 6 hours a day. I called the RE again today because I'm still spotting. He told me once again that if it's not red or light a period flow everything is ok. He has no concerns about the spotting and says it's completely normal. That's a tough pill for me to swallow because I still worry every time I go pee. I've been in bed most of the day and when I get home from work tomorrow I will go straight to bed too. I'm so used to constantly being on the go but I will tell you that I'm getting used to listening to my body.


Still nauseous and want to sleep 24/7 but hanging in there. It's worth every minute...

I know I lag.. at everything nowadays

So yes Jake and I are finally expecting our first... well wait it's not technically only our first it's our second too.. lol I'm indeed pregnant with twins. My first beta was 616, second was 1198 and the third was 1950 something. We went last Monday for our first ultrasound and sure enough it was 2. We went again today and everything is looking great and my numbers are perfect.. as my nurse says. We go again next Monday and get to her heartbeats. Which is still weird for me to say, actually just saying I'm pregnant is weird to say. After 3.5 years I deserve to say that I'm actually pregnant. It amazes me that something so small can make you feel like such crap. I guess the first sign I had was nausea, I had my transfer on a Wednesday and I was feeling so good. I had a great appetite and was doing great. On Monday is where it all started to change. I felt awful, I was so sick to my stomach but couldn't figure out why.. lol Well we now know why I felt that way. I was really struggling at work my first week back. The PIO shots were kicking my butt, now I'm happy to say that I can actually walk lol... No joke I had such a hard time walking because of the shots. Now I think my body is doing what it's suppose to do with all the progesterone I'm producing. Although I'm not going to lie I would be so happy if I could sleep most of the day. I constantly feel like I was hit over the head with a ton of bricks. All in all I feel pretty good, I just pray to God that I don't start throwing up. That is the one thing that makes me so nervous. I need to jump in the shower and get my pj's on but I just wanted to update you all with what's going on with me. Here's a picture of our beautiful babies...